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Shades, Chapter Three: Vanishing Acts, pt. 1 - The Phantom Librarian
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Shades, Chapter Three: Vanishing Acts, pt. 1
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Emmeline Vance's funeral disturbed Tonks, not only because of Emmeline's death, but because she's realized in her investigation that Emmeline had been captured before being killed, because her parents are fighting about something they won't discuss with her, and because Remus, to whom she spoke under an invisibility cloak, is starting to make comments about how she deserves someone better than him... just before catching a glimpse of him covered in scratches, which he doesn't give her a chance to ask about.

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When Tonks got home from work just before dawn, she found Mum already up and fussing about with something in the kitchen. Her face was drawn and pale, and her eyes had taken on the sunken, bruised look that Sirius's had held so often last year. Tonks hugged her from behind and kissed her cheek, then came around and started Banishing the dry dishes to the cupboards. Mum just leaned against the sink until it was done.

"I'm sorry," she said. "I don't like it when I get like this."

"Have you slept?"

"A bit." Mum wiped her face with the back of her hand and sat down at the table. "Dad wants to get his old group of Muggle-borns back together. What's left of it anyway. Make all sorts of public noise to take some heat off of the Order. Or at least that's what he means to tell Dumbledore. I think he means to actually take on Death Eaters."

Tonks took a deep breath and poured herself a lukewarm cup of tea. "I'd rather he didn't do that. I've enough to worry about, without him painting a large target onto himself."

"I know. And it needs something a bit more subtle. You're not getting enough information. I could get inside. I would need to pretend... to tell Narcissa that I've seen the light and--"

Tonks had thrown the tea before she had the slightest notion that she was going to do it. It cut off Mum's speech before the first drop rolled off the end of her nose. Tonks clapped her hand to her mouth. "Mummy, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to--"

Mum dried her face carefully. "I will take that to mean you also disapprove."

"Of you telling your mad sisters that you've left Daddy and me and want to join them? I don't know which would be worse--if they don't believe you--"

"They would."


"Because I'm their sister."

"Wonderful, so if they do believe you, you run off for a year among Death Eaters, and they're not all family, and sooner or later, they'll find you out and they'll kill you. For what?" She sat down shakily.

"To have someone on the inside."

Tonks winced. Mum wasn't cleared to know a great deal, and certainly shouldn't know anything about Snape (unless Sirius had mentioned it, and he didn't appear to have done so). "Mum, please trust me," she said. "You don't need to."


"Mum, please. Stop talking about it and stop thinking about it."

"I'll talk to Dumbledore," she said stubbornly.

"Fine, good. Talk to Dumbledore. Have Dad talk to Dumbledore. Or just stay here and snap at one another a bit more."


She stood up. "I'm sorry, Mum. I'm tired. I'm very tired."

"You should sleep."

"I know. But you have to promise me..."

"I'll talk to Dumbledore." Mum reached over and took her hand. "I'm sorry, Dora. I didn't mean to frighten you. I just feel like I need to do something. Sirius gave his life to it. I should never have curled up and been safe."

"You and Dad kept me safe, and now I'm paying it back by keeping you safe."

"There's no payback for parenting," Mum said. She bit her lip. "Dora... you know I'm not particularly fond of your unusual hair colors, but you haven't used them all week, and..."

"I'm having a spot of trouble morphing. It'll pass."

"If it hasn't passed in a week, come into St. Mungo's, and I'll look you over. I don't like it."

Tonks nodded wearily, having no intention at all of going to St. Mungo's. Mum was the only Healer who understood much about Metamorphmagi, and she wasn't entirely objective about the situation. She went upstairs to bed, slept until just past noon, and awoke to find both of her parents gone, and the Weasleys' owl fluttering around her bedroom.

She held out her arm, and Errol gratefully lowered himself to her, missing her arm entirely, but landing on the bed beside her. Mum had tied an extra note to his foot--Owl arrived at eight a.m., but you needed sleep. No arguments.

"No arguments," Tonks muttered, and pulled the sealed scroll from Errol's foot. It was addressed to her, but not, to her disappointment, in Remus's handwriting. Instead, it was Molly's large, round script, easily readable from halfway across the room.

She sighed and carried Errol over to her desk to drink from the cats' bowls, and broke the seal on Molly's letter. She'd used a simple encoding spell, but even if someone had broken it, there wasn't much to learn.


Remus was by, and has left a letter to you here. He said not to send it with Errol, as he doesn't want to take a chance of its being intercepted (though I suspect from his face that he's more worried about your mum and dad than about Death Eaters, if you want my opinion.)

I think you should come when you have a bit of time afterward, in case he
has told you something which we would need to know about. Would your schedule at work let you come today? You could join us for dinner as well. Hermione arrived yesterday, and I know she and Ginny would very much like to see you. They're quite fond of you, as Arthur and I are, and we'd love to have you as a guest, no matter what the topic of conversation.

Please let me know your plans. I haven't been able to make cauldrons or kettles of your work schedule, and Remus is equally mystified by it. Do they ever give you a normal shift anymore?

Send your answer back with Errol; he's sturdier than he looks.


Tonks opened the drawer on her bedside table and pulled out her schedule. Robards was mixing things up horribly with scheduling--he'd done no administrative work before being assigned his new position--and he'd given her only eight hours to sleep before pulling her in for an evening shift, from three in the afternoon until eleven o'clock at night. She'd have time to go to the Burrow, but if Remus had left any complicated instructions, there'd be no time to discuss them with Molly. She wrote back, explaining the situation, and asked Molly to send word to her at the Ministry if there would be a problem with her arriving quite late.

She spent an unfruitful afternoon working at clues on the Vance murder. As an Order member, she was most concerned with how long Emmeline had been missing. As an Auror, she was most concerned with who might have seen her last. The two meshed reasonably well, but she was quite unfortunately unable to narrow the events down to less than a day before her body had been discovered. Emmeline had gone about her usual business in magical construction, contacted Minerva McGonagall to ask about a project for the Order, and disappeared somewhere between there and a dinner appointment with a man McGonagall and Dumbledore considered beyond suspicion. After speaking to him for two hours, Tonks was convinced they were right--he seemed quite devastated by the loss of a woman he repeatedly referred to as his "dearest, dearest friend." Also, Tonks had asked him to show her a photograph of Emmeline that he kept on a high shelf, so that the sleeves of his robe would fall down. His arms were clean.

When she returned to the office, Arthur Weasley told her that Molly had instructed him to give her permission to arrive at any time of night. "I'm staying a bit late myself. They've made a whole new department, and I've got to put together some procedures..." He shook his head. "It's easier to plan with a staff of two, you know."

"I'll take your word for it."

"Molly sent enough dinner for both of us to eat over work. Care to have a desk break and eat it?"

She smiled, and sat down with Arthur for fifteen minutes, inhaling a large quantity of Molly's cooking, which seemed to please him, as he and Molly had apparently been worried about her health. To her surprise, she found this less irritating than when Mum fretted over her.

Arthur was still working in his office, a candle burning down on the shelf behind him while he worked with an untidy sprawl of personnel scrolls, when her shift ended. She waved to him, and he asked her to tell Molly he'd be home soon.

Then she Apparated out of the entranceway, and found herself in the Weasleys' cheerful garden. Most of the windows were dark, but light spilled from the kitchen and the living room.

Hermione Granger, standing at the window, spotted her first, and before Tonks had even reached the kitchen door, both Hermione and Ginny Weasley, in pajamas, rushed out to meet her. They embraced her warmly, and looped their arms around her waist from either side. Tonks put her arms over their shoulders.

"It's good to see you both as well," she said. "Have you had a good holiday so far?"

"I've just been anxious to get back," Hermione said. "I can't seem to stand being away while all of this is going on."

"Hermione needs some tutoring on how to take a holiday," Ginny said, winking.

"Yes, and Ginny's been so exemplary at it, with her stack of Daily Prophets..."

"You two should both be in bed."

"It's only eleven."

They went into the kitchen, where Molly was stirring some soup. "Girls, let Tonks be."

"It's all right, Molly. Really." Tonks smiled at them.

"Mum says you have a letter from someone in the Order," Ginny said. "We'll leave you to it, I suppose."

"Well, thank you."

"But do the pig's nose first." Ginny stuck out her tongue. "Ransom." Hermione laughed.

Tonks braced herself for some pain--it had gotten progressively worse with her hair--but concentrated as hard as she could. It was good to see them smile, and...

Nothing happened.

She frowned.

Tried again.


Hermione's smile faltered. "Are you all right?"

Tonks made a great show of trying to look down her nose, and tapped it with her fingers. "Apparently, it's broken," she said. "I shall have to have it looked at tomorrow."

"Leave her be," Molly said again, more sternly.

The girls disengaged, and Tonks saw a very concerned expression on Hermione's face. She said good-night to cut off any further questions, and watched them walk off toward the stairs. Ginny was speaking quietly, Hermione casting ever more worried glances back.

"I'm sorry about that," Molly said. "They've missed you, and Ginny's worried about you."

"Now, she seems to be worrying Hermione about me as well."

"I'll talk to her."

"Please do. It's really not that important. I'm just under a bit of stress. Thank you for not telling them that the letter is from Remus, by the way. I remember being fifteen. I don't fancy imagining the guessing game that would come from that."

"Whatever is going on between you and Remus is your own business," Molly said. "Though it's my impression that he's being an idiot."


"Well, he keeps walking away from a good woman who makes him happy, and he's making himself miserable doing it. I don't know of a better definition of the word." She raised her wand, and a scroll appeared beside her. She handed it to Tonks, and busied herself chopping vegetables while Tonks read.

My dearest Dora, Remus had written. This is not an easy letter to write, but it has to be done. When we were close yesterday--it was too close. Greyback has become accustomed to using his sense of smell a great deal more than I do--it's a myth that our sense of smell is any more acute, but it seems that my new companions are more practiced with it--and he smelled the perfume that's in your soap. He knows I saw you, or at least that I was with a woman. I had to create yet another lie about... well, the details are unimportant. It isn't a lie I was glad to tell, and it isn't one I can tell often.

The truth is that it wasn't just your perfume. I'm different when I've been with you, more human, more normal. I can't help that. You pull it from me without even trying. And I'll find myself thinking of you, wishing for you, and they always seem to know that I'm hiding some connection to the world of normal wizards. Even when it isn't Greyback. Another werewolf, who I saw only briefly to ask about issues of common concern, refused to deal with me because he considered it obvious that I was still holding on to hope.

And he's right. You are hope to me.

And hope is one thing I can't have.

Tonks closed her eyes, crumpling the parchment, not wanting to read the last paragraph, though her traitor mind had already picked up the salient points.

I never should have let you love me, and I can't let you be with me now, not even secretly. I'm so very sorry. You deserve better than this, my darling Dora. How can I walk away? But I must. I want you to have every good thing there is in the world. Please... be free of me. I love you. Be free.

Tonks heard something wailing, and the world was glassy and full of prisms. It was rocking back and forth. Her throat was sore, and someone seemed to have plunged a knife into her stomach.

Then she felt the tears on her face and understood that she was weeping, that the ink was running on the parchment beneath her. Molly Weasley had embraced her at some point and was rocking her back and forth like she might have rocked her children as babies and saying, "There, dear. You just go on and cry, it's all right. You don't have to tell me anything."

But when the tears passed, Tonks told her everything.
31 comments or Leave a comment
super_pan From: super_pan Date: August 22nd, 2005 06:23 am (UTC) (Link)
You have Tonks shooting through time in a haze of work, and every time that she should have respite, she gets slapped with something new and awful. This chapter was very intense. I do have one question: were Andromeda and Ted arguing because neither one wants the other to do what they propose? Or have they decided to do these things in conjunction with each other? Either way, both things are way too dangerous, especially Andromeda's plan. This is a really brilliant way you've created to turn the screw on poor Tonks. Arthur and Molly are just the best, and I like how you show them to be just upstanding people. Also, Hermione and Ginny are portrayed very well as maturing, but still not adults. I like this phrase, "cauldrons or kettles". Great chapter!
fernwithy From: fernwithy Date: August 22nd, 2005 12:08 pm (UTC) (Link)
I do have one question: were Andromeda and Ted arguing because neither one wants the other to do what they propose?

More or less. They're usually quite simpatico on how they see the world, and it includes going to great lengths to protect the family, and now they are trying to protect one another... only neither wants to be protected. Also, Andromeda's mind isn't entirely clear, which really has Ted worried, but which is making her a lot less reasonable than he's accustomed to from her.

The Hermione and Ginny stuff, I'm glad you liked, because that actually took me longest, trying to find a balance between clueless and too nosy to be remotely likeable, and to establish that Tonks does like them.
dalf From: dalf Date: August 22nd, 2005 07:29 am (UTC) (Link)
"I haven't been able to make cauldrons or kettles of your work schedule"

You know its these little pieces of really believable cultural flavors that you add that makes for good Fanfiction! Wow! You do an especially good job with the Burrow and Molly.

I like the personal stuff too. That Tonks finds it less annoying that Molly and Arthur are fretting over her than her mother and that the new Auror head having no adminastrative expirance is taking a bit to get the kins worked out. Its nice that even if he is smart and an ok guy he is not perfect.

Plus! On top of the nice original details, and the characterdevlopment in the, lets call them open spaces of cannon, you mange to fit the story into the framwork of HBP perfectly. The showing just what information GInny and Hermione have, so that it perfectly explaines what they say in HBP. Just wow.

I do tend not to like some of the things you do with the werewolves where cannon leaves holes. I tend to lean a bit more twards a werewolf that looks a bit more like they do in most books and movies. The "no enhanced sense of smell", kinda sits funny. I would leverage things like that, small things, to play into Greybacks fanaticism. In a sort of "you are powerful, the humans are afraid of you because of your power! They want to crush you because of it, enjoy your power!" Or some other such retoric, appealing to most werewolves bitterness is not in most cases going to make them want to bite mroe people and subject them to the same thing unless there is at least some sort of perceved "betterness" about being a werewolf. But, this is all a matter of taste I guess and it does not contradict cannon so there you have it.

The last bit! Just amazing, I am trying to decide if I like your Molly or Andromeda more. I think its probbly Molly becasue she is MOLLY! I mean its the Weasley love bias I guess.

I think I can say with out much doubt that so far this is the best post HBP fanfic I have seen!

fernwithy From: fernwithy Date: August 22nd, 2005 01:15 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thank you!

I try to say that I haven't vacillated on the super-smell thing, but a brief look at anything I've written would make a liar of me. This is sort of committing to one side or the other. (Though Remus was so young when he was bitten that he wouldn't really have a sense of any change, and may smell better than other people without realizing it. It would be impolite to run around sniffing people, though, so he has probably not gotten a lot of practice in the area.) On the whole, I tend to think of werewolves as fully human (if, in Greyback's case, depraved) most of the time, and only have the stronger senses when they're wolves, which ties into the old lore of why they wanted to become wolves. (In most of the older stories, people voluntarily became werewolves.)

And thanks on the "cauldrons or kettles" line. I was worried that it wouldn't make a lot of sense.
dalf From: dalf Date: August 23rd, 2005 02:12 am (UTC) (Link)
No no the "caldrons and kettles" was perfect! It woudl not have worked comming fomr a muggle born or a half blood or someone younger. But, from molly or perhaps Madam Pomphery (or even Amdromeda but especially Molly) it was perfect.

Re: Werewolves
Well I am a bit biased as the only bit of fanfiction I have ever written involves a werewolf. In it there are a number of subtle enhancments expirenced (though more pronounced in the days immidatly before the full moon). Also the prolonged convlesence after the full moon as far as being weak and sick is primarlly a side effect of the wolvesbane potion, the actual transformation itself being roughtly the equvlient of a all night party with lots of drinking and no sleep (i.e. something you can do now and then when you are young but not something you want to maintain once a month into your 30's).

I don't think any of that conflicts with Cannon but it sure is not stated in cannon either.
maple_clef From: maple_clef Date: August 22nd, 2005 10:23 am (UTC) (Link)
Although I knew it must be coming eventually, Remus' big rejection of Tonks was still heartwrenching! Poor Tonks.

The hints of what's been troubling Ted and Andromeda are really interesting, and add to the pressure that Tonks is under. I like reading Auror!Tonks; little touches like getting that chap to reach up to the high shelf for the photo really consolidate her character as efficient and competent, which is always really welcome.

The encounter with Ginny and Hermione was well done, too - just enough interaction for them to get an idea that all is not right, so they can misinterpret what they saw without being uncharacteristically dense!

But - poor Tonks :(
fernwithy From: fernwithy Date: August 22nd, 2005 01:19 pm (UTC) (Link)
I have a feeling I'll be writing a lot of Auror!Tonks in this, as it's mostly going to show her at work in Hogsmeade. I'll have to study up on how law enforcement agents at that level actually spend their days; it will be new territory.

Hermione and Ginny are just missing some bits of information. I wanted to make their conclusions seem sensible, so I'm glad that worked.
author_by_night From: author_by_night Date: August 22nd, 2005 12:05 pm (UTC) (Link)
Does Andromeda realize how stupid this idea is? Narcissa might fall for it - something about her strikes me as less 'blood traitors aren't family' than Bellatrix - but it's still dangerous. Besides, I can think of a lot of awful things they might expect her to do, and if she doesn't, putting Imperius on her.

And I feel really sorry for Tonks right now. Remus needs to realize that he's *not* dangerous, though I see his point with Greyback. But deserting Tonks isn't going to save her life.
fernwithy From: fernwithy Date: August 22nd, 2005 01:23 pm (UTC) (Link)
Does Andromeda realize how stupid this idea is?

No, and the more people tell her it is, the more she'll insist that she's right. She really needs to be told that there's already someone on the inside. Of course, they probably could have used a spy on the spy, but they apparently didn't have one.

If she and Ted coordinated their schemes, it might work--she could claim he left her because she's a pure-blood in order to wage war on her family, and she has nowhere else to go, and he could use her return to her sister as a rallying point ("You see, you can never know them!"), but thank heaven, each of them is more interested in pursuing his/her own plan and getting the other to stop than in working together on it. I will have Dumbledore talk sense into them eventually.
author_by_night From: author_by_night Date: August 22nd, 2005 10:11 pm (UTC) (Link)
*Sigh* Andromeda is a lot like a certain cousin of hers, isn't she? ;)

And I still think no matter what she said, she'd have a heck of a time convincing Bellatrix.
dalf From: dalf Date: August 23rd, 2005 02:19 am (UTC) (Link)
I was thinking she could go to Narcissa with some complaint about Ted (possibly even his reckless behavior) with the request that even thoush she dissapproves she is her sister and she coudl help. Then it woudl simply be a matter of allowing herself to be persuaded that she is better off without him.

Bella is a bit crazy but still she was with Narcissa when she was disobeying Voldemort and I don't know callig ehr Cissy and all that .... she still knwos who her sisters are. Even if she is mad and would sell any of them out. She could be convinced, its the other DEs that would be a problem.
harriet_wimsey From: harriet_wimsey Date: August 22nd, 2005 12:21 pm (UTC) (Link)
OH, poor Tonks! I understand Lupin's logic, but he's being an idiot, and he doesn't understand the depth of Tonks's feelings. You may be having trouble channeling her, but it doesn't show. This is marvelous and heartbreaking and I'm overjoyed whenever there is more.
fernwithy From: fernwithy Date: August 22nd, 2005 01:37 pm (UTC) (Link)
She's getting a bit easier. ;)

And I agree--Lupin's being an idiot to actually split with her, though I suspect there's more going on. (I'm not going to write off the reasons he actually gives, particularly the poverty reason.) Someone needs to punch him in the face for doing it by note, though!
jesspallas From: jesspallas Date: August 22nd, 2005 01:01 pm (UTC) (Link)
Break up by note - oh Remus, even "for her own good" that is harsh. Are you trying to make the poor girl feel desolate and helpless? *sigh* :(
fernwithy From: fernwithy Date: August 22nd, 2005 01:39 pm (UTC) (Link)
He's thinking even less straight than she is, but he really needs to be hit. I'm ready to volunteer for duty, and I adore the guy.
thunderemerald From: thunderemerald Date: August 22nd, 2005 03:24 pm (UTC) (Link)
Good lord, Remus, what the HELL is wrong with you?

Okay, that's not entirely fair to say, as he does make a fair point about not being able to be too physically close to her.

But this gives an entirely new spin on the hospital scene at the end of HBP. The only interpretation I've seen of their exchange so far (besides the Remus-rejecting-her-because-he's-gay one) is Tonks as persistent and Remus as self-loathing. Here, you've got him rejecting her because their relationship is dangerous to BOTH of them, not just her, which adds an element of selfishness to her persistance. I'm curious to see what you'll do with that.

As always, wonderful installment -- can't wait for more!
fernwithy From: fernwithy Date: August 22nd, 2005 03:33 pm (UTC) (Link)
I think that it will develop more into the self-loathing scenario, but certainly I think he'd have good reasons to at least pretend to split with her. He's in a very dangerous place. But he's communicating badly, and it's the worst possible time for her... and I think more to the point, there's a self-loathing element in the fact that he decides to actually call it off and do without hope, rather than saying, "Look, it's impossible right now, and I can't see you at all; please wait for me until this is over," he says, "You shouldn't have loved me in the first place."
thunderemerald From: thunderemerald Date: August 22nd, 2005 04:27 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yeah, and I can't STAND that he did that. But it makes sense, doesn't it -- if he'd expressed hope that they might be able to pick up where they left off sometime in the future, then Tonks wouldn't be nearly as desperate for him by the end of HBP. Stupid, STUPID man. But again, in-character stupid man. This is, after all, the same guy who called Fenrir's werewolves his "equals" in HBP. Argh.
author_by_night From: author_by_night Date: August 22nd, 2005 10:13 pm (UTC) (Link)
This is, after all, the same guy who called Fenrir's werewolves his "equals" in HBP. Argh.

Sigh. Yeah. Remus, you're a Werewolf, but *human*. Werewolves that use their curse to purposely harm others are barely human. They aren't your equals, darn it!
tunxeh From: tunxeh Date: August 22nd, 2005 03:48 pm (UTC) (Link)
What, not even talking to her in person about it before calling it off? I know he thinks he's trying to do the right thing but this isn't it. I liked Tonks' reaction to her mother's mad plans. And the brief Tonks/Hermione/Ginny cameradery was sweet, too.
fernwithy From: fernwithy Date: August 22nd, 2005 04:10 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thanks! And yes, Remus...!!!!

Sigh. He's not good at this. I think he means to be, but he's not.
From: (Anonymous) Date: August 22nd, 2005 03:59 pm (UTC) (Link)
Odd, I'm not quite ready to hit Remus, although I should be. It's kind of like not wanting to hit someone who keeps doing stupid things that break half the bones in his body, I suppose. He keeps causing himself enough pain that adding to it doesn't seem like it would get through to him, whether or not he deserves it. Fleur might have some ideas.

Come to think of it, any chance of Tonks and Fleur becoming better acquainted? I just realized it would make her declaration of sticking by Bill more effective if she'd spent some of the year seeing what Tonks is going through and also hearing more about the dark side of werewolf lives. I'd actually respect her decision more (and I respected it as it was) if she'd spent some of the year seeing "Dating a Werewolf: Worst Case Scenarios to Make You Both Suffer" first hand.

But, then, I knew a couple a few yars back who believed love conquors all - and they had plenty of love, from what I saw, and worked hard at things for years - and, in the end, it wasn't enough. Since then, I've always liked stories where characters know exactly what they're getting into (or maybe have an even grimmer view of how big the problems will be) and choose to go for it believing it's going to hurt.

I would like to see Narcissa and Andromeda interacting now, although I don't see how that could happen. Her husband in Azkaban, in only child lined up for a suicide mission, and the only family member she's got to support her acting crazy as a loon, blaming her husband for the trouble, and not having a clue why anyone should care if there only child gets killed, it seems to me that Narcissa might get more warmth talking to Andromeda (even if Andromeda was being 100% herself and not a spy). They both have their only child in deadly danger and can't do anything about it. Narcissa may, for the first time, be really feeling for what Andromeda is going through in her fears for her daughter. She also knows it's her fault Andromeda has only one child.

Right, sorry, enough speculations. You really do a wonderful job of catching the voice of the characters and making them sound right for Rowling's world. The little comment about Errol being stronger than he looks being so Molly.

By the way, Tonks is used to being able to rely on her morphing ability when undercover as an Auror and as an Order member. It seems like the loss of it could be pretty dangerous to her. Also, are her other magical abilities going to be effected? And is she going to have any cause to cheer up this year?
fernwithy From: fernwithy Date: August 22nd, 2005 04:10 pm (UTC) (Link)
It's a thought with Fleur. I'll have to do a read through on Fleur--I know that at one point, she very coldly says that Tonks has "let herself go," but I don't remember whether that was before or after Christmas; if it's early on, there may be some room for it, though I have the impression that Fleur was entirely caught up in Bill that year.

Tonks doesn't appear to have any problems with magic other than her morphing--we see her cast her Patronus easily, rescue Harry from the train, etc--so I think it's just that. But yes, if she's accustomed to morphing for work, she's going to be in trouble. Also, quite a lot of her endless wardrobe won't fit!
From: (Anonymous) Date: August 25th, 2005 02:41 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thanks, I'm really enjoying seeing how this works out.

coralia13 From: coralia13 Date: August 22nd, 2005 04:08 pm (UTC) (Link)
Wow - you made me cry! Usually, JKR's the only writer who can do that. This is a wonderful chapter, and Remus's "rejection" makes so much sense, as does Tonks's heartbreak. Beautiful.
fernwithy From: fernwithy Date: August 22nd, 2005 04:11 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thanks! (Yes, I am a sadist. :p)
izhilzha From: izhilzha Date: August 22nd, 2005 04:43 pm (UTC) (Link)
And he's right. You are hope to me.

And hope is one thing I can't have.


Wow, this is just getting *more* intense. I'm not sure I want to see where the story goes from here (except that we know how it ends, more or less).

Translation of the above: you rock. I love coming to work and being surprised by new Fern fic!
From: (Anonymous) Date: August 22nd, 2005 05:43 pm (UTC) (Link)
Wow, that was good. I'm not angry at Remus, I totally see his POV. But I am devastated for Tonks. No chance to discuss this with him or anything (in a wierd sort of way, it makes me think of the Sex and the City episode where Carrie's boyfriend breaks up with her on a post-it). So much angst, poor Tonks and Remus. And I love your Molly and the last line. :) Cheers! Mary
a_t_rain From: a_t_rain Date: August 22nd, 2005 07:16 pm (UTC) (Link)
Such a sad letter. I knew it was coming, of course, but it's totally heartbreaking all the same.

And lots of Auror!Tonks to come? Excellent.
sprite6 From: sprite6 Date: August 23rd, 2005 02:08 am (UTC) (Link)
Oh God. Just . . . excellent.
From: psalm_27 Date: August 23rd, 2005 12:46 pm (UTC) (Link)
I feel as though I'm just being a fan girl and not providing anything constructive...but this is just awesome. I realized about a day or two ago as I read other R/T stories that in my mind, Shifts and now Shades are R/T canon for me.

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