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Spewing out too many words since November 2003
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You're Jane Eyre of Jane Eyre by Charlotte Bronte!

Which Classic Female Literary Character Are you?
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miss_daizy did a meme in which she answered five questions, then anyone who wanted could have her ask five questions. Being a narcissist, I jumped right on board. If you want me to ask you questions, comment.

1) SW or HP? Which canon do you like more? Which fandom?
I like both canons about the same; it depends on my mood. I tend to like imagining further afield in SW (eg, stories about worlds we never saw that live under the Empire or the Republic, stories about the past, etc), while I like imagining more about the immediately existing HP characters. No reason for that in particular, just a quirk. Fandom-wise, the SW fandom drives me absolutely bananas. Just completely. HP, ship-wars and all, is a nice, sweet, calm harbor after several years in SW fandom, which is probably why I've spent more time here lately. On the other hand, I have some very, very good friends from SW fandom--people who huddled together and tore at our hair over the same things. Kind of foxhole buddies who I wouldn't give up for anything. So there are attractions to both.

2) You mentioned you were a convert to Judiasm, I beleive. I've always wondered, as a convert, do you have moments that you don't feel fully Jewish? Do you feel ties to your former religion?
Theologically, no. I've definitely made the transition from "they" to "we" in the self-image aspect as well. But there are a lot of times when I don't feel particularly wanted, and feel like I'm not accepted by other people as fully Jewish (of course, to the Orthodox, I'm not; I had a proper mikveh immersion, but my bet din consisted of two Reconstructionist rabbis--one a woman--and one Reform-ordained rabbi who referred to himself as "Reconformodox" and hated the splintering).

Culturally? Metza-metza. My conversion was definitely on theological grounds, and the predominant Ashkenaz culture isn't terribly appealing to me. On the other hand, I feel very much at home with NFTY sorts of songs, love the intellectual heritage, and am fascinated how very many different secular cultures have grown up around the same religious one. On the other hand, the synagogues where I feel most at home culturally--the ones that occasionally have tamborines and guitars--also inevitably have a "social justice" skew that, with the exception of Israel-related issues, always focuses on whatever left-wing cause is popular at the moment, which drives little socially conservative me absolutely berserk. Sigh. I'm looking for a home, culturally speaking.

Ties to my former religion? I love Christmas carols and during the holiday season, I have to bite my tongue many times before I break out into "Joy to the World" or "Hark the Herald Angels Sing" (the latter was the first song I learned). I simply love church music, and most synagogue music doesn't appeal to me much. (It doesn't help my will power that my Lutheran godfather's Jewish wife sang "Ave Maria"--at the church we went to--apparently without feeling much compunction about it.) Oddly, though, I'm less likely to question my decisions on Christian holidays than on Jewish ones, when I have no family to go visit and the family I have tends to forget that I'm doing anything (my cousin's wedding was scheduled on Yom Kippur). Jewish holidays tend to be very, very lonely for me. I pray a lot on High Holidays, and feel that I have some company that way, but G-d's not a great conversationalist these days. I often go up to my alma mater (I converted during college) for Pesach, because it has a vague resemblance to going home, but of course, I don't know anyone there anymore. I belong to a huge synagogue that doesn't notice whether or not I appear at any given point. One thing I really do miss about life as a Protestant, other than Christmas carols, is the sheer number of totally free events (the number of things that people are expected to pay for in my synagogue--including membership!--comes very close to offending me). Potluck dinners, classes, choir practice, and so on--my synagogue has a choir and I expressed interest, but no one ever got back to me. When I went to choir practice with my mom because she wanted to introduce me to her friends when I visited--it's an automatic social circle--they invited me to sing that Sunday and it took real argument on my part to get them to stop insisting! I'm not going to worship in a church--and singing is a form of worship, imho--but it was so nice to feel wanted--invited--by a religious community, instead of feeling like I may have bludgeoned my way in and an unwelcome. My teacher Rabbi S. said, "I once heard someone say that it's easy to love Judaism and hard to love the Jews. I insist that you love both before I'll let you convert." I do, wholeheartedly. But I sometimes don't feel that I'm loved back.

3) You're well-known in the fandom. Is that something that you strived for? How did it come about? What are some of the drawbacks?
Am I? Huh.

Well, it's probably not smart to admit it, but heck yeah. Of course I strive for it, and I'm horrendously jealous that I've yet to write something that's designated by QQ or DS as an "It Fic" or a "Hot Rec." (Maybe next time, I'll have to finish a four-hundred-and-fifty-six page novel! :)) As to how it came about? Probably just that I can't keep my mouth shut. Or, well, keep my keyboard fingers still. I do my best to write well and say things that people might be interested in hearing. I guess I figure if that doesn't work, I don't deserve to be listened to anyway. I haven't had any real drawbacks so far. One person thought I wrote too fluffy a Vader, but tastes vary, so no big.

4) What's the biggest "red herring" in discussion about educational issues?
If we pickled all the red herrings in educational issues, we could keep a deli in business for a year. Picking the biggest is more or less putting on a blindfold and throwing a dart into the water.

If I have to pick one of the blasted little fishies, I'd pick the money issue. It's important, don't get me wrong--schools need some new facilities, teachers need to be paid, and books need to be bought. But it doesn't strike me as the huge problem in a lot of schools, and I think all the shouting about it takes attention away from the cultural issues that really are vitally important to discuss.

5) You can invite and 10 people to dinner. Who do you ask and what would you like them to talk about?
This one's hard!
1. J.K. Rowling. Frankly, I'd let her talk about anything she wanted. Her sense of humor amuses me to no end.
2. Mark Twain. Because between the two of them, they could keep the snark going all night.
3. J.R.R. Tolkien. I'd like to talk to him about the woods, and about how he would create a future-based world, since he disliked the way SF writers tended to do so.
4. John Adams. I'd like to set him ranting about politics, of course. Also, about the rule of law.
5. Abigail Adams. Because it would be rude not to, and also because I'd love to know exactly how much she meant when she suggested that the Founders "Remember the ladies."
6. Someone heavily involved in the Mars exploration project, because I want to know everything. She and Tolkien can argue about future societies.
7. King Arthur. I just want to know the real scoop about him.
8. Stephen King. I want to get his opinion on movies and books in the genre after the cut-off date for Danse Macabre. I'd love to see him analyze The Lost Boys the way he did The Amityville Horror.
9. George Lucas. I understand it's hard to get him talking about anything, but I'd like to get him going on what it is he believes and where it shows up in the SW movies... I was so hoping to hear more of that in the director's commentary on Return of the Jedi, and less about lighting and special effects.
10. Rabbi Akiba. I'd love to talk to him about starting to study late in life, and about that weird Four Went Into The Garden incident.
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persephone_kore From: persephone_kore Date: March 25th, 2005 05:15 am (UTC) (Link)
Am I? Huh.

Yes, yes you are. *g* Not as universally as some, perhaps, but definitely known.

And... I'm a bit nervous about asking, but... questions, please?
From: magnolia_mama Date: March 25th, 2005 05:37 am (UTC) (Link)
I'm not going to ask for questions, but I did want to say that your thoughts on your conversion to Judaism are almost word-for-word identical to what I felt/went through when I converted to Catholicism (also when I was in college, btw).

I'm horrendously jealous that I've yet to write something that's designated by QQ or DS as an "It Fic" or a "Hot Rec."

Though it is nice to be honored thus, it loses its luster when your fic carries a "Het" warning.
ashtur From: ashtur Date: March 25th, 2005 06:23 am (UTC) (Link)
Fire away, I'll answer yours and the set I have from Kit together :)
marycontraria From: marycontraria Date: March 25th, 2005 07:12 am (UTC) (Link)
Your answer to the dinner guest list is amusing me quite a lot, expecially the first two.

I'll take questions, if you can come up with any for me. You don't have to do five, really. :)
rosefyre From: rosefyre Date: March 25th, 2005 08:24 am (UTC) (Link)
Well, in terms of Jewish holidays, Happy Purim. I hope you had as good a holiday as I did. *grins* *realizes she's finally not tipsy from the alcohol from earlier* *grins again, anyway*
maerchen From: maerchen Date: March 25th, 2005 08:46 am (UTC) (Link)

Questions, please. :-)

You know zip about me other than my liking SW, but that makes me more interested to see what you might ask.
marycontraria From: marycontraria Date: March 25th, 2005 04:12 pm (UTC) (Link)

Re: Questions, please. :-)

Hee, that was kind of my rationale, too.
volandum From: volandum Date: March 25th, 2005 11:15 am (UTC) (Link)
Hmm. Please ask me.
sannalim From: sannalim Date: March 25th, 2005 06:16 pm (UTC) (Link)
Well, most of your recent essays have gotten Snitched, so yes, I think that qualifies you as being a "well known fan".

I'd like some questions, too.
miss_daizy From: miss_daizy Date: March 25th, 2005 07:45 pm (UTC) (Link)
Thanks - those were interesting to read - especially 2. I flirted with the notion of conversion at one point, then realized it wasn't so much because I really beleived what another faith held true, as it was that any faith/no faith was going to disappoint me in some ways and enthrall me in others. So I stayed Catholic, but always wondered how someone who made the leap felt about it.

You're a well-know fan from the little corner where I happily dwell. Since I really only dabble in it, you're like a semi-celebrity - LOL!

I'd offer to do 5 in return, but you've got lots asking you for questions and frankly, it gets tough thinking them up after the first couple of people, so it's your call.

akashasheiress From: akashasheiress Date: March 26th, 2005 01:11 pm (UTC) (Link)
You can ask me if you want.:)
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